Nicki Minaj: “I Was Scared Of Sex And Open Doors”

As Nicki Minaj begins to cement her place among the new generation of mega hip hop stars, she is beginning to open up about her rough childhood, growing up in Queens New York.

The Young Money rapper, who is well known for her lyricism and outrageous fashion sense, said she was taught pre-marital sex was bad as a youngster.

“When I was younger, I felt like I had been taught that pre-marital sex was bad, and so I always felt like if I had pre-marital sex I would go to hell,” she said. “So when I did, I really felt like, erm…

“I suppressed that a lot. So I really went through years of trying to make myself feel comfortable. Like, ‘OK, I’m not going to hell.’

“But it was scary at that time I was younger, and you know that’s all I’d been taught. So I spent a lot of time beating myself up.”

On being afraid of open doors.

My mother left my dad many different times and came back. He would beg, cry, stalk us… One time, he pulled my mother out of a car and dragged her for two blocks.

Anywhere my mother and I were, I made sure the door was locked, because that was my only way to protect her.

Lets hope Minaj difficult pass will inspire other underground artists to go after their dream.