Bobby Brown has opened up about Whitney Houston’s death in his first interview since her untimely passing in February of this year.

Speaking with Matt Lauer on the “Today” show, Brown said he learns about passing through his bandmate Ralph Tresvant.

“I just started crying,” Bobby Brown said. “You never expect someone close to you to just die. It was really hard.”

Bobby Brown has also responds to criticism that he is the cause of her death. According to the 43 year old singer, Houston was taking drugs long before he met her.

“I didn’t get high on narcotics before I met Whitney. I smoked weed, I drank beer, but no, I wasn’t the one that got Whitney on drugs. I’m not the reason she’s gone.”

Brown says he was surprised to learn that cocaine was found in her toxicology report.

“I was hurt. Me being off of narcotics for the last seven years, I didn’t know that she was struggling with it. But at the same time, it’s a hard fight to maintain sobriety that way.”